Now the school holidays are here, I have my 'grandma duties', looking after Ross and Kieron. Ross stayed over from Sunday to yesterday (Wednesday) and Kieron came round each day. I'm missing them today and feeling a bit down but Ross will be back again on Sunday. Paul often put his thoughts and feelings into verse, so I'm giving it a try. "Missing Paul" People ask me how I am, I smile and say "OK". But the emptiness I feel inside Is with me every day. Putting on a brave face At times is hard to do. I'm missing Paul so very much, I struggle to get through. I tell myself that Paul would say, "Please Mum, don't be sad". But I miss so much the special Love and friendship that we had. I miss our chats over the phone, Sometimes quite late at night. If only we had a magic wand, We'd have put the world to right. Friends offer words of comfort, "Time helps to ease the pain". But right now my only thought is, I won't see my Paul again.