I missed you so much yesterday mate, we should have been celebrating your 38th birthday, with me calling you old as I'm still 37. My tears have flowed and I've laughed at memories, which is all I have now. I miss you nagging at me on the phone, the way you laugh, throwing your head back and roaring, and your always brilliant advice. I look at your picture daily and I will never forget my best friend, a piece of me went with you as I haven't been the same since you left. I'm sorry I didn't come to your grave, but I know that you understand, you always did, you were the best friend anyone could ever have. Harry remembers you fondly, and even had his 1st pony tail the other day. I know you are with me sometimes, thank you for still being there for me. I just couldn't stay in London without you, we moved there together as children and even though we changed and grew you were always my best friend. I wish you could just come back for one day so I can hold you and tell you how much I love and miss you, this year without you has been too long. x x x